The human body is just a container for the soul, no different from a glass bottle.Mouli is presumably empty.Therefore, this profound connotation cannot be understood.
Adolescence is a time of physical and physiological development.Emergence of secondary sexual characteristics, sexual development, cognitive development, personality shaping.
To children, policy changes, virus epidemics, global warming, the end of the world, none of these things are scary.Criticism from grown-ups, betrayal from friends, and falling out of the trend of your peers can be scarier than that.
However, no matter what kind, she rarely felt it.
Mouli knows how to gain trust, please people, and surround them with smiling faces and expecting hearts.It's so easy.She always feels bored, uninteresting, and very empty, so she looks for some stimulation once in a while.However, that's still inherently boring.Life is like an electrocardiogram, with a constant frequency of falling, rising, falling, rising again, and repeating itself.
She cares about Southland, and has always been.Even if she lives in a different place, she will call Nan Guo every day to ask her details.Nan Hui would report her life, how she was doing, what she ate, how well she slept, and who she had been with recently, she told Mouli.Mo Wuli will also ask the class teacher in Nanguo.
Before relapsing, Wu Nanguo had been taking medicine and seeing a doctor regularly.
After Nanguo refused to transfer schools, Mouli was angry with her for a while.
She proposed to suspend school in the second semester of the second year of high school.Uncle and aunt went to visit her in their hometown.Generally speaking, the school does not recommend suspending school, so they only granted her a one-month leave.When Nan Guo arrived at his uncle's side, Mo Xingyun picked up the phone and said he would pick them up, but don't tell Mo Wuli.
It's a pity that Mouli was beside him when he answered the phone.They went to the station together, and when they saw Mouli, my aunt grabbed her arm first, and the first thing she said was: "Calm down first."
clam down?
Why?
Mo Wuli pushed away Mo Xingyun and walked forward.
Often bodily, Wu Nanguo was unresponsive, and he had difficulty moving. Along the way, the station attendants and flight attendants of the subway station gave him a helping hand.The luggage was sent by express mail. In order not to affect other people, my uncle carried her down.Nan Guo sat in the back seat of the car with his eyes open blankly. Even if he patted her on the cheek, she didn't respond.
Mouli rushed to the car window, forgot to even open the door, and slammed on the car window, calling her name.As if recognizing her voice, Nan Guo finally tilted his gaze.
Mo Xingyun stood diagonally behind Mo Wuli, and saw her face tense suddenly.Mouli didn't make an expression of anger, sadness, or surprise, just gritted her teeth.
Nan Guo didn't go to his uncle and aunt's house, but was directly admitted to the hospital.After rest, she felt better.
Mouli took the fruit to see the southern country.She sat by the bed, peeled apples for her with a fruit knife, hummed softly, inserted the pulp with the tip of the knife, brought it to Nan Guo's mouth, and fed it to her.
Mouli said: "It doesn't matter if you don't go to school, if you want to rest, you can rest."
The fruit knife was soaked in honey, she put the tip of the fruit knife to the tip of her tongue, and licked it lightly without hurting herself.
She shakes the rocker to level the bed.Nan Guo lay on the pillow and followed the bed.Mouli turned off the light.The ward became gray and gloomy, and the curtains were mottled with age, like the surface of the moon.The impact of this moon is huge, turning the room into the night before the destruction of the earth.
Nan Guo lay on the bed, looked at her quietly, and whispered, "Sister."
Obviously she is the older sister.
Mouli took her hand: "I'm here, Nanguo."
Nan Guo looked at her, his black eyes remained motionless, and transparent water accumulated in his eyes: "...Am I really a bad person?"
Hearing such a question, Mouli felt like being pricked by a needle.She said, "Why do you say that? Of course you're not."
Tears flowed from Nan Guo's eyes, across his temples, and onto the pillow.Mouli watched quietly, then turned to get a tissue, wiped away her tears, and then put it on the pillow to cover up the stained tears.
Nan Guo spoke very suddenly. Although the adults often asked her what was wrong and what she needed, she never said anything.When really said it, only picked the occasion where two people of the same age were present.
Mo Wuli stuffed Mo Wuli into a water basin and was about to go out when Mo Wuli bent down to pick up the apple peel.The sunlight outside the window falls into the room, illuminating everything brightly and warmly, just like the southern country.
On such an occasion, Nan Guo spoke up.
The source of any violence is varied, but the process and result are similar.
Because of his illness, Wu Nanguo did not have any regular playmates to travel with, but he did not lack friends who could talk, and his life was relatively stable and smooth.
After taking the medicine, she was often in a daze, or couldn't concentrate, and had a bit of difficulty studying, so she enrolled in a cram school.Uncle is a good man, won a lottery with a large denomination, and often supports her.Grandparents will not leave her alone.In addition, in fact, she is not short of money.
This is a very popular large-scale cram school in the city. There are a lot of people. Classes are divided into classes according to subjects. They mainly tutor in mathematics, English, and comprehensive arts and sciences.
To be honest, Nanguo loves to play with mobile phones, and his efficiency is not high, but at this age, unless there are very few people with extraordinary talents, learning is ranked first.
On January 6, the first year of high school, a boy approached her for the first time in a cram school.They bumped into each other in the hallway, the guy was talking to a friend, his feet sticking out too much.Nan Guo was distracted and tripped.
The boy bent down to help her.Nan Guo was helped up in a daze.
During the rest of the class, the boy accidentally sat next to her without an outline.
Nan Guo took the initiative to lend him something, and they talked.
This boy is Wu Yaofan, a classmate of Yucai, and she is in the same class as her, but the two of them have no contact in class.Wu Yaofan's grades are in the top ten in the class, but he keeps saying that they are not very good.Nan Guo felt that he had a big face, so he covered his face with his hair and lowered his head to talk to him.
After class that day, Wu Yaofan went to the bus station with her and took the bus together.
That night, Nan Guo wrote on social software: "The 8 seconds of staring at each other. This is the only meaning for me to waste my whole day."
A week later, Wu Yaofan and her developed a relationship of going to the convenience store downstairs to eat Malatang together.
Nan Guo updated his status on social software, the content is an excerpt from "Lonely Tokyo Tower": "We can't live together, but we can live together. I accept this condition."
"Lonely Tokyo Tower" is a novel about extramarital affairs.
Later, these screenshots were forwarded to Lan Yiruo in other classes.
Lan Yiruo and Wu Yaofan have been in love for many years, from children's playing games to older children's playing games, it is vigorous.
When she hates someone, she won't make that person feel better.It's a matter of self-esteem, her belongings, and how she looks to her friends.
Compared with ordinary children, Nanguo has too many weaknesses.
For those who want to fit into the group, imperfection is a weakness, and being out of the group is a curse.She is not thin enough, sweats easily, and has pimples on her face.The shoes she wears are not fashionable enough, the idols she follows are not trendy, she once threw sanitary napkins into the toilet due to lack of life experience, and accidentally put her underwear into the washing machine.
If Lan Yi responded to everything, others were also willing to cooperate.
If she changed seats, the students who were assigned with her would definitely ask the teacher to refuse.There is a lot of pressure at school, and everyone loves to play the game "Southland Virus". As long as they touch her things, they will be infected with this virus. Her things are the source of infection, and she is a biochemical weapon."Wu Nanguo likes you" "You sleep with Wu Nanguo tonight" are more insulting swear words than "fuck your mother".The pranks of boys being shoved on top of her and running away screaming are also very funny.
Running in the morning, her rising and falling breasts are Lan Yiruo's favorite joke. Lan Yiruo created a chat account that anyone can add as a friend, created a "black man engaging in bot" similar to the confession wall, and updated Nanguo's photos every day.
Even if Nan Guo was lying on the bed in the dormitory, he would wake up suddenly and feel that he heard the shutter sound of his mobile phone.
No one spoke to her, no one responded to her.She is not transparent, but she does not exist as a person either.
The teacher asked Lan Yiruo to clear the accounts of hundreds of friends. Seriously, he held a special class meeting in the class and declared that everyone should love each other and help each other.Everyone was silent, winking in private.
As long as you have your own position, you can always be invincible.Because in this field, everyone can agree with each other, and no one is wrong.
A week later, the "black man making a bot" was revived again.
Just, no more face-showing photos.
The teacher didn't allow the "Southland Virus" game, so they stopped playing it.Still, pushing people on her worked.A boy who was quite popular in the class was knocked over, touched her chest with his hand, and said "I'm sorry" softly.
Just that "I'm sorry" made Nanguo happy for a long time.
However, soon she saw him and Wu Yaofan together, and the two of them were having a lively discussion.Jiang Qi said: "Tank, tank. It's really big, has a D, right? Let's call her teacher from now on."
"Teacher Cang, that teacher?" Wu Yaofan suppressed a smile.
"yes."
Both sides laughed.
They are on purpose.
Whether in class or cram school, Wu Yaofan stopped talking to Nan Guo very early on.
Occasionally, Nanhui hallucinated to hear a voice.
"Just wait," she would have said if Mouli was here, "I'll go and give him some color."
But Mouli isn't here.
Nan Guo wanted to solve it by herself, even if she just got over it, it was still a solution, it was her way of facing the problem.Her condition is getting worse and worse.
In the hospital ward, after listening to her, Mo Xingyun couldn't make a sound, so he could only quietly go to see Mo Wuli.Mouli stood beside the bed, thinking silently and long.From his point of view, he couldn't see the expression, and it took a long time before she spoke.
"You wait," Mouli said.
She turned around and went out, Mo Xingyun quickly put down the basin and followed.They talked about it outside the ward.
Mo Xingyun said, "What are you going to do?"
Mouli replied calmly: "What do you think?"
"Don't get crazy, can you be more rational?" Mo Xingyun reasoned with her, "Talk to the school and let the school punish them."
Mouli looked at him, studied him carefully.Mo Xingyun hated being seen like this by her.
She asked: "Did the school help you when you had a fight with that one before? I threw something in his face, what did he do with me?"
"..."
Mouli repeated his words, and asked him condescendingly: "'Don't get nervous, can you be more rational'... What should you do if you are more rational?"
She actually asked his opinion, which made Mo Xingyun recover a little bit.He remembered, yes, he is a man, she and Nan Guo's elder brother.When she was still a child, Mo Wuli didn't eat snacks, and he and Nan Guo often shared her portion.At that time, he will give his own to the southern country.Because he is an older brother.
Mo Xingyun said: "Let Nanguo rest for a while. They are all in their third year of high school, and those people will graduate soon. She will avoid it first, go back if she wants to go back, transfer to another school if she wants to, and finish her third year of high school. If you can't provoke us, you can't hide."up?"
Mo Wuli said: "Nan Guo did nothing wrong, why did he hide?"
"You have to look at things realistically. There are many reasons for campus bullying. Nan Guo's character..." Having said that, Mo Xingyun lowered his voice, and said closer, "It's not that you don't know Nan Guo's character.very sensitive."
Mouli crossed her arms and nodded thoughtfully.
Mo Xingyun continued: "You are so well protected, you don't understand at all, society is very complicated. I have also been a victim, I know, this kind of thing is just to be endured, after waiting, it will feel nothing.”
Mouli continued to nod.
"You think, if you go to help her now, you are also involved? You are also in the third year of high school, and you don't take the college entrance examination? What about your future? Be aware of the overall situation. I am a brother, and I am also thinking about you—"
Before he finished speaking, he was suddenly grabbed by the neck and pushed back.
Mo Xingyun staggered, and spit out his saliva.He yelled at her in surprise and anger: "What are you doing?!"
The sound was too loud, and a nurse at the nurse's station leaned out to remind her to be quiet.
Mouli folded her arms and replied, "I understand. After all this, you just find it troublesome. You hope it won't affect your life, right?"
Mo Xingyun was taken aback.
"The rationality you're talking about is just poor empathy, right? It's okay to be selfish, but can you stop putting gold on your face?" Mouli rolled her eyes and continued in a low voice, "I don't have a brother,I only have one sister."
Mouli continued to take care of Nan Guo, handing warm water and medicine to Nan Guo.Nan Guo would cry from time to time, wanted to bang his head against the wall but couldn't make it, and kept asking Mouli if she was bad.
She couldn't go to school anymore.
Spring is over and winter is coming. In such a sunny summer, a vibrant new school year begins.In the campus named for cultivating talents, everyone is full of smiles, discussing youth and the future.Troubles will soon pass, life is shining, bright and brilliant, close your eyes and open them again, it will be another brand new day.
The transfer student came to the new school, wearing a white shirt and school uniform, with fresh black hair, full of life, natural demeanor, friendly to others, with an angelic face, and a sense of transparency.Impeccable and eye-catching.
The people next to her summoned up the courage to say hello to her.
"Hello." Mouli showed a pure and realistic smile.