Translator: shiko
Proofreader: Myuuchi
Chapter 13
"Not exactly a walking disaster, but similar. So be careful, Meize. Whether I'm a walking disaster or not, it's all up to you."
"Then, if I ask you to go out with me, would you finally find your inner zen?"
"Well, it could happen. I'll live quietly if you wish."
To be honest, his eyes were creeping me out a bit. Yet, I still believed he's a good person, so I didn't feel all too threatened.
"This farce has gone too far, Yse."
"Farce?"
His confident voice slowly bloomed into a grin. After he confessed I worried that it would become awkward between us, but I'm relieved our relationship has stayed more untouched than I had thought.
"The fact that I like you, it's not a farce."
No, why are you being so calm?
The confession happened so spontaneously and naturally that I had to take a deep breath. Despite that, his sly smile constantly hit at the upper cavities of my heart, as if sneering at my efforts against him.
"I really do like you, Meize."
"Please, can you quit saying that you like me?"
"Why? I like you. Since…"
Yse's index finger playfully nudged my cheek.
"I like the way your expression changes every time I tell you that I like you. So, Meize Hazelnut, I like you.”
"Uh, shouldn't you normally save a confession for someone special? And we're not even dating! I haven't even replied to your confession yet!"
I covered my flushed cheeks with both of my hands. Perhaps it was out of my embarrassment that my face heated up and refused to cool down.
"I don't have enough time to describe everything I like about you, so why not take advantage of it? And I was going to take it slow, but seeing your reaction, I think this side of me will reach you better." [Yse]
"No, no. Don't you think the former side was better? And! You said you had no interest in dating! You can't just change your perspective so suddenly!" [Meize]
"It's true that I wasn't interested in dating. To be honest, I don't want to do that right now." [Yse]
I stared at him blankly, as if I had been struck on the head with a hammer.
What do I do when the man who just said he liked me says he doesn't want to date? How am I supposed to take this? What am I to do when the man who professed his affections moments prior tells me that he has no interest in dating? How am I supposed to accept this?
"There's something I would prefer over dating." [Yse]
"Something else? What is that 'something else'?" [Meize]
"Marriage." [Yse]
"……" [Meize]
Right, you want to get married instead of dating. I had half given
up, covering my forehead with my hand.
How do you stop such an intense fastball[1]? Is there any way to avoid it? When I grumbled with my hand on my head, Yse's hand naturally reached out to me, . Aand at that moment, everything clicked together. With thoughts of his confession running through my mind, I broke away from my stupor.
[1] Fast and unavoidable statement
“Um?"
My body reacted faster than I thought was possible I smiled awkwardly seeing thatas Yse's hand patted the air. A vacant stare occupiedon his face.
"What, just now……."
He frowned and reached for me once again. However, I had no choice but to dodge him again.
The reason for that is because I hadn't washed my hair yet. Even if it doesn't look that way, it'll definitely feel unwashed if touched The best thing I could currently do was to evade his hand's advances.
"……Meize, you just avoided me?"
I knew it would
become a serious misunderstanding.
"Uum, Yse…?"
Guilt crept upon me when I witnessed the shock on his face, so I carefully called out to him. He stared at his hand for quite a while. Then, he stared at me, his movements becoming stiff like rusted iron [2].
[2] He's moving like a robot
"I didn't mean to dodge it."
How can I hide the fact that I didn't wash my hair? Can I prove that I didn't avoid him? I didn't really have a good idea, but I needed to say something to soothe his solemn face.
"…….Then, why?”
His low voice rang in my ears, but there was not much I could say that would
precisely answer him. After all, what I had chosen were actions rather than words.
"I wouldn't hold your hand like this if I was avoiding you, would I?"
I held one of his hands and waved it in front of his face proudly. Fortunately, my actions were found satisfactory,
for his expression seemed to relax.
Huu. He doesn't realize that me holding his hand right now is part of a bigger picture., I'm trying to prevent it from reaching my head.
"Hmm, but the rejection… Was
it really a genuine one?" [Yse]
"No way, that can't be possible?” [Meize]
I smiled brightly, promptly appealinged to the argument that I was innocent. Yse gazed at me as if scrutinizing me and flashed a charming smile. Concurrently, his long fingers dug between my incomparable ones like snakes.
"However, a rejection is a rejection. Wouldn't it be a genuine refusal?" [Meize]
“I don't want to be hated by you. Your rejection is really, well, I'm sensitive when it comes to lies. For example….." [Yse]
"For example?" [Meize]
"I like you, Meize." [Yse]
"No, don't do that!” [Meize]
Give me time to clear my mind? If you keep on popping up like this, my already bewildered heart will beat even faster.
“That's a false rejection." [Yse]
“No, it's not? This is a real one?" [Meize]
"You look like you like it." [Yse]
"Where the hell do I look like I like it?" [Meize]
“When you like something, your heart pounds faster than usual. Badump badump. Sounds pleasant. With a sweet beat." [Yse]
"The criteria being heartbeats, isn't that a little too vague? And, how can you hear my heartbeat?" [Meize]
The distance between us is close, but I can't hear anything. My heart can't beat that loud.
“I can hear you.
Very well at that."
"Haa?"
"Meize, I can hear you all right.."
No. It didn't occur to me before. Why does it feel so sensual to just be caught in between his fingers? Every time the skin between my fingers gets swept
by his big ones…… ugh. This makes me look like a pervert. Let's be careful. Alert.
"Don't think about anything else when you're with me. See,
you're doing it again."
The arm that I lightly held before me was tugged forward as my eyes flickered. I could guess what that sensation on my cheek was, yet I also didn't want to know. My face turned crimson.
For a moment, my consciousness focused on the thought that he had
a strong body. Yse, you must have worked out pretty hard. Your chest is like a stone tablet.
"What are you thinking about this time?”
"I'm not really thinking about much."
I swiftly turned and avoided his gaze. I could feel his wary eyes trained upon me. 'I'm admiring your firm chest', I can't even say that.
"Aren't we too close?"
I tried to reverse the conversation and turn back, but our hands didn't loosen easily. Rather, the opposite occurred, and I ended up falling closer into his embrace. Yse doesn't seem to be trying very hard, but I still ended up
stuck?
"I'm fine. On the contrary, I wish we could go further. Let's just stay like this.”
"What nonsense is that?"
I leered at him, my voice taking on an aghast tone.
His eyes softened in reaction. I'm looking at you. This is not a laughing matter.
“It would make a lot of sense if we got married.”
"We're not even dating.
What marriage?"
"Then, shall we start dating from today on?”
Since when did you become so smooth? You weren't like that. The Yse I knew was
sweet and kind. I've never even been sent such a sensual look from him.
Without knowing what to do, I just babbled on. Yse's face gradually approached mine.
Wow, how can a human's skin be so flawless that the pores seem almost non-existent?
…… No, this isn't the time for that. What do I do about my hair? I thought I could cover his hands, but he still has his head!
"No!"
It was for a very short moment, but I sensed that the purpose. His face got closer to mine was to approach the top of my head. On that note, the distance between Yse and the top of my head was getting shorter, though.
I've lost my ability to judge. When I came back to my senses again, I raised my voice in alarm.
Ah, I'm doomed.
"Take it easy, Yse! No! You can't do that!"
"I think you're the one that needs to calm down, Meize."
“No? I'm very calm right now?!"
He peered down at me and released my fingers from his grasp, kneeling down before me without obstructing my movements Those eyes of his locked onto mine.
"What are you doing?
Yse, get up."
Embarrassed, I pulled on his sleeve, but instead of getting up, his hands wrapped around my face.
"Tell me, Meize.”
"W-What do you want me to tell you?”
I rolled my eyes and avoided his gaze, but I couldn't defeat the perseverance of his eyes.
"The reason why you avoid me. I can handle you doing it once but not twice."
"I'm not avoiding you. I'm just in a little bit of a dilemma."
I know it's not a big deal to say I didn't wash my hair,
but isn't it a bit too much to tell that to a man you like? How many girls in the world can proudly say to a guy, “I didn't wash my hair today!”
“Meize."
I'm not going to tell you even if you look at me with such pitiful eyes. No. I'm never gonna tell. I won't be able to tell you even with an ambience like this.
For the first time in my life, there was a man who knelt in front of me and all I had to confess was not love but the fact that I had not yet washed my hair. That's the story. And that was the worst
thing I can think of, really.
"Meize."
Yse beckoned me with my name once more,
but I couldn't answer him.
If I knew this was going to happen, I would have washed my hair beforehand. I don't like this predicament
all because I failed todidn't wash my hair yesterday.
"You should go back, Yse."
If I keep on staring into his eyes, he'll have to eventually go back home. He must have some special skill that made me want to divulge the truth. Since I didn't want him to know the true reason, I pretended to be serious.
As soon as I get home, I'm going to start with my head. Right, I'll clean up the house.
From now on, I'll be cleaner than anyone else.
“No. I'm going to hear why you're avoiding me."
"In times like these, can't you just pretend to know?"
Sometimes people have secrets they don't want to tell. Okay? Do you understand?
hey, it's been a while since the last upload
first, I'd like to apologize for the late update, some personal problems came up and i was very busy
hopefully, i'll be able to update once every 2 weeks now
the next chapter will come soon, i just need to slave ask a pr to look it over
stay safe and dont forget basic hygiene
before i forget, there aren't any current illustrations for this novel but there is a promo webtoon, here are what some of the characters look like
meize
yse
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